Okay so when I said I wanted a list, I was not expecting everyone and their mother to write stuff down...but that is not even a problem. The dillemma is this: Why is everyone writing down things that they can buy themselves lol or impossible things? Britney Spears???? Honestly Tim how am I supposed to pull that one off because lol I am just not your type. Justin, I can deal with the fire truck...but you're 24 years old...what could you possibly want with a fire truck? Matt, you're just cool...You're my brother, of course I'm gonna get you what you want...LoL...I did think that McFlurry thingie looked cool anyway. I think Mike wants the Incredible Hulk Soccembopper Hands...LoL...well if he doesn't then I will just keep them because they are hilarious.

So it is almost 5 am...and I really just did not sleep at all last night. So much on my mind, I just do not even know where to start, or to even know where to begin at to try and sort things out and make it all go away. Part of it is probably because my friend is going to visit me any day now and this time of year, although it is always fun and happy, it still bums me out...*mAjOr SiGh*

I think I am going to go running...Ciao Babes

These thoughts just sort of came to me...I really do not know why...well I do...But I dunno...I guess I just felt like writing them down...let me know what you think it means...because I am confused!



I know I'm a little neurotic...
A little dramatic,
A little romantic at times,
A little more sensitive than others,
But the moments you loooked at me
I swear the world stopped for us.

I know this is all just in my head...

This is my favorite part.
The part where I get butterflies in my stomach just thinking about you,
And it's so crazy because I don't really even know you.
All I know is when I look at you, my heart skips a beat.
I get this natural high and suddenly the room feels hot.

I remember looking over at you just to see you looking at me,
I've never been so shy in my entire life and I can't just go up to you and say hi...
Because I don't know, I just can't.

Maybe the next time I'll see you...
It won't be in my dreams, you'll actually be here...

This is the best part.

Aye Yi Yi...3 weeks and 3 days until Christmas. I have yet to learn what it is that everyone wants, so I would appreciate a little bit of a list anytime now...Thanks... Ciao Bebes

Dear Mr. T....

I have not spoken to you in what I want to say would be a good 5 months. You have broken my heart, said hurtful things about me, made fun of me behind my back, made mutual friends choose sides between us and more over the worst thing you could have done {besides cheating} was lied to me. I have been torn over this for too long now, and suddenly out of nowhere you pop up wishing me a belated Happy Thanksgiving?!? And more over, you expect me, of all people to be on good terms with you whenever you call me out of the blue because it fits into "your time". Why can't anything ever be about something other than you and fitting into "your time"? You said you never wanted me in your life, and yet you call...so what does that mean? You know what? Just NO...that is all I have to say. I am still trying ever so hard to get over everything that you have done to me. I trusted you with everything that I had, and everything that had value to me in my heart and look what it got me. I've got news for you Mr. Taylor, I am not what you think. You can no longer sweet talk your way past me and use me like you used to. I will NOT sit around waiting for your approval for me to be happy. Did you ever think that maybe it was for the best that you walked out of my life? That maybe I could actually be moving on, and meeting cool, awesome, SWEET, and CARING people that actually want to know the simple things, like how my day was? Boy do I have news for you. Remembe when you told me no one would ever like me because I was TOO "blah"? GUESS WHAT BUDDY...Someone DOES like me FOR ME, and for the first time in a long time, I can feel with my heart that things are going to be okay, and that this someone IS someone who sticks to their word and won't hurt me. You know Mr. T, I would never wish anything bad upon you like you did me. Infact, I only wish you the best, but I am here today to say that I do not care anymore. For some reason things happen the way that they do, and for the first time I can honestly admit that I am okay things between "us" ended....Because somehow my heart is telling me...the best is yet to come...

Thanks for the "life's lessons" Mr. Taylor...


 
Now that I have responded to the awful phone call from earlier...I only hope now I can fix what I screwed up with the phone call I MADE earlier when I was at ShoreHouse Cafe...*sIgHs* 


Wish me luck...I think I am going to need it...

On a side note...Is it already bad luck if one of his closest friends thinks I'm a liar and cannot stand me?!?!?

CHRISCHARGE311: Hold up wait a minute, let me put some pimpin in it

Just another classic quote from Christine to brighten my dull mood...heh.

So Josh told me awhile ago that this song made him think of me...so I copied the lyrics onto here...LOL they are quite the funny ones...but I would hope he doesn't think I am going to ditch him...because that is the last thing I want to do...

Surfer Girl
I was at the beach, sitting on the sand
When I saw this girl
Dark brown eyes, and a dark olive tan
She was watching the sets
With a surfboard underneath her arm
The first moment I saw her I knew she'd do me some harm

She's so good
She came out of the water
From the best session I'd seen
Man, she had the biggest chi chis I had ever seen
She put down her board, and sat down next to me
And played a soft ole lonely tune, on her ukulele
I don't know what had happened But I'd fallen asleep
The next morning I woke up
She was sleeping next to me

[Chorus:]
I fell in love with her
I'm so in love with her
I fell in love with her
My little Surfer Girl

She got out of bed
Waxed up both our boards
Grabbed me by the hand and then she took me out the door
We surfed all that day long
At least eight hours straight
Man! I knew she was the one
And damn I couldn't wait
Well I asked if she loved me
She said, "Yeah well I guess"
So I asked her to marry me
Dammit, you know she said "yes"

[Chorus]

I was at the alter
In my tuxedo-o-o
Waiting for my Surfer Girl
Man, where did she go
Later on that day
A friend to me did tell-ell-ell
That she went to Mexico
To catch a, to Catch a, to catch a 10 foot swell
That Bitch

[Chorus]

My Surfer Girl

So I have not said much about this...but I met this super sweet awesome guy named Josh, and he just rocks my world. I told hilary about it and now she won't live it down...lol...I felt so special...he had a sound check before his rockstar performance and he called ME...wow I felt so special.