So today has just been SO utterly long...I just *sIgHs*...I already want to go home. I feel like I am not good enough to be here and everything just whomps. My FRIEND is visiting at the moment which makes me eerie about going into the water...lOl..but I guess by 5 AM tomorrow I have to be over that fear.

Saw this quote...It has kind of made me think a lot lately...I don't know why...I guess I am just pondering both sides of it...

"Why am I dying to live, if I'm just living to die?"
                    -Tupac-

I dunno....But yeah...I've been in this stumper for a few days now...I must admit that one things that lightens my dullness is this fine piece of work ova herrrrrrr.

So anyway, tomorrow morning is the first day of heats...Hopefully I won't be a retard and I'll actually make it through to the end. I've got to be outside of my house by 4:45 ish so I can sign in and then get ready because I am in the first heat at 5. So I guess I am going to go lay down...I should be resting and visualizing tomorrow in my head...That always helps. It doesn't help when you've got loads of other craptastic thoughts on your head though...Man I wish someone was here so I could vent them all out...But alas its just Andy, Shane, Andy's girl, Nick, JJ, Matty, and me.  Five guys and two girls...Two girls who don't get along, and 5 boys that are well...just boys who don't understand anything about girls...Except how "Stace can rip it up out there if she'd just try and stop being a bebe...BLAH BLAH BLAH..." They don't even care to know why it is I am freaking out...But whatevs...They aren't the people I should be talking to about it anyway. Well I guess I am off to bed...Ciao Bebes...I hope all is well on the mainland!